Friday, October 20, 2006

AWAKENING.....




The sound of gongs and other smaller bells come from far away. At the break of dawn, I venture out to explore this new vacation spot where I will be spending a few days away from the chaos of the city. I walk alone on an unpaved road covered with leaves because of last night’s cloudburst. The smell of jasmine in the early morning still lingers in the air and is very refreshing. The air is as pure and fresh as His first breath. The song of the stream flowing nearby is melodious and very calming to my ears. As I draw closer to the sound of the bells, I hear the monks singing ancient chants and hymns that are incomprehensible... yet... enchanting and hypnotic. I enter the holy temple, as old and ancient as time itself…. and the chants get louder and entrancing, putting me in a trance like state, as if coming from the belly of the universe. The chants have a vibe, an energy that emanates from the words that are spoken. The words resonate throughout the temple and I surrender myself to the harmonic songs. As the wind blows, all of the bells peal out in unison and create a beautiful symphony that puts me into an even deeper ecstasy. I walk around His house, looking at the ancient walls that depict many stories showing the end of evil, the coming of light, the triumph of truth. The high coffered domed ceiling is covered with dark soot that has accumulated over many hundreds of years from burning all that incense. The heady scent seems to have housed in the walls and the pillars. I can’t make out the dull paintings on some of the walls. They must have been painted with bright colors once, and now…. covered with soot…. they are almost unintelligible. The smell of incense so subtle yet so powerful gives me a feeling of weightlessness. I watch the monks as they make offerings and put bright red flowers at His feet and illuminate candles at the lavishly decorated altar as a symbol of wisdom and virtue. The time seems to have stopped. The idol stands tall and high in the middle of the grand hall, in the most elegant pose. His eyes are big, sleepy and peaceful. They look into my eyes and right into my soul….. sending shivers down to the bone… welcoming me to His house…. and his smile so mysterious as if he knows what I am thinking, as if he has known me forever, as if he knows all my secrets. The feeling is so overwhelming. I come outside and look at the lush surroundings, feeling the cool and refreshing breeze on my face…. and the tall trees surrounding the temple swaying in agreement, as if they know what I went through inside. These immortal trees that have been here since forever, since the temple itself was built or perhaps even much longer, have witnessed people change at this spot and leave a different person. As I stand there trying to unfold the mystery of the place, a single ray of sunlight emerges from the rain clouds and rests on me. I feel the warmth on my face, experiencing a change in my body, purifying every single cell and filling it up with the holiest, sweetest and purest water. I am soaked in eternal bliss. Never have I felt so much at peace. The gong strikes again…I break down in peace.
Was it a dream, or did i fantasize? i do not recall.....

Monday, October 09, 2006

Walk Me Through Life...



Hold my hand and walk me through life,
It's dark and lonely and alone I strife.
To survive

Wake me up, I've been sleeping too long,
Living in a dreamscape where I don't belong.
It's been long

Whisper a song into my ears,
And rid me of all my fears.
Wipe my tears

I'm fading away, call my name,
I'm forced to play life's unfair game.
It's insane

Open the door and let me in,
Let me find the light within.
Help me win

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

FALLING APART



I love walking in the rain so no one can see me crying,
My soul cries for help, I have given up trying.
I hide in the dark and in silence I abide,
I lie on the bed with my soul right beside.

I dream of the life that I could have had,
Now nothing makes a difference - good or bad.
What keeps me awake is the thought what's become of me,
It's a never fading guilt that's crawling inside me.

Cursing and screaming my thoughts are going wild,
Begging for mercy from my own disturbed mind.
The colors are gone and my whole world is gray,
I plea for help as my sanity is shying away.

Even my shadow seem to walk away from me,
It seems impossible for me to break free.
I watch myself as I come undone,
And walk once again as my tears and rain become one.

Monday, October 02, 2006

MAGICAL REALM


When the world's asleep at night,
I often escape from my room.
when midnight silence is at its height,
I take a walk under the moon.


I know this place in the forest,
an enchanted spot by the creek.
Where the stars shine the brightest,
my sactuary of magical retreat.


I sit amidst fairy trees and flowers,
and listen to them as they whisper.
Their bewitching melodies that empowers,
when you pass them by a whisker.


And here it is that I lose,
all the perception of time and space,
And here it is that I can choose,
the way of life that I embrace.


When i'm jaded from the worries of life,
here I come, where no one can find.
The only place I don't strife to survive,
is the magical place within my mind.

ANGRY MOMENT

Don't expect
Don't judge
Don't hate
Don't love

Don't criticize
Don't tease
Don't misinterpret
Don't appease

Don't ask me to change,
Just leave me the way I am

TRAPPED IN MY DREAM



I see myself falling,
lifelessly, in my dream.
I see myself drowning,
helplessly, but I can't scream.

I see myself running,
from an unknown fear,
And wait in the dark,
for something sinister to appear.

I see myself burning,
in the fire that's within.
Someone wake me up,
or I dream until.

Are these my fears,
or an overactive imagination?
I'm drenched in my tears,
haunted by an eerie apparation.

Do you know how it is,
to dream something so real?
And there's hidden danger,
behind everything surreal.

I am not a quitter,
and i'm not going insane.
I know my dreams are bitter,
but i'm learning how to tame.